This weekend has been awful. I’ve been made fun of for who I am. I’ve been made fun of for acting on instinct. I’ve taken shitty pictures that won’t get me a good grade. I dropped my phone in a lake and lost everything. I cut my foot on lake rocks and got infected. And the worst thing is I stayed optimistic this whole weekend. Something I’ve never done and now it all just came crashing down on me.
Making out with a person for the first time is the coolest thing and the second coolest thing is driving home and getting aware of all the parts of your face where they were and tasting their lip balm on your lips. The third coolest thing is outer space.
When I say “please don’t take a picture of me” it’s not because I’m being bitchy and stubborn, it’s because if I see that picture I will seriously feel so bad about myself and think I am the ugliest thing on earth and sink a little deeper into self consciousness and hatred.
and before anyone says anything about selfies- those are controlled photos.
There’s a difference between wanting to change your body to improve and strengthen it and wanting to change your body because you hate it. It’s important to know the difference because one of those will destroy you from the inside out.
do u ever get really upset because you have a friend who is so mean to you and you would just call it quits but they occasionally do a nice thing
I have so much sexual energy held up inside me it’s ridiculous. But no one will ever know because I’m too fucking ugly to do more than be stared at.
im annoyed that i dont make time for study, im annoyed that my grades are slipping and im annoyed that there is nobody else to blame but myself
do you know how difficult it is to feel secure in your looks and personality and overall self when absolutely no one has ever shown any interest in you whatsoever like yeah you shouldn’t base all of your self-confidence on other people but still there’s like always that irritating little voice inside of you that tells you that you’ve never been worth a second glance or getting to know for anyone and you can try to ignore it all you want but it’s still there
kinda weird that u can think about someone as much as u want and they have no idea